2005-07-18

B17 - On the move again

Hi everyone,

Well things are changing again. I gave my notice to both my landlady and the Denis, the Reno guy I was working with that I'll be leaving at the end of the month. Both were reluctant to see me leave which is something new for me. There is a part of me that feels it would be nice to stay here in Kelowna. I have a job, I’m saving money and I have a place to stay where I’m not harassed. However, I feel that if I stayed here I’d be doing so only because that’s what I wanted in my OLD life. I say old life because what I’m presently doing and where I’m living is not what I want in my new life.

So now it’s my choice to move from this “comfort” zone. I feel that what I’ve experienced here I can now experience anywhere, but at the same time I want more. I want to begin creating my new life and I can’t do that as long as long as I’m attached to the OLD life and the OLD ways. I feel that I’m walking with a foot in both worlds and that if I need to make some money; I can do it in the OLD world until I learn how to manifest what I desire with love in the New World.

I’m planning to make my way to the East coast and stay in the Maritimes for a few months. I was talking to a woman the other day about my move and why I was going there and as I answered her I realized that part of this journey is to witness and experience that while people are separated by topography, they are joined in commonality by their beliefs and illusions. While each province has different landscapes, businesses, TV, Radio, provincial and municipal governments, etc. they are joined by similar issues and beliefs. Each believing they are different and unique, yet under the fa├žade of living, they are fueled by the same denial based rhetoric and belief systems. During that conversation I also realized that after this move to the opposite end of the country, (within Canada) that I’ll be moving to the opposite end of the World, Australia, (?) where I feel it’s to experience more of the same thing within differnt contries and cultures.

Well that’s it for now, I’ll try to keep you posted on a more regular basis if I can.

John
“Healing begins in the heart”